An Option

Posted in Relationships, Uncategorized with tags , on December 23, 2009 by whinley

I was out all day.. Thinking if someones thinking of me.. or even trying to think of me… someone called and put me on hold while talking to friends… and after a few minutes told me to be on hold or call back later… It was so uncomfortable for me to be made as an option… Then when I got home this evening… Someone called and asked me a few questions and how was my day.. I was typing fast and telling what was I doing all day.. and I showed the shirt I bought and to my shocked… someone was not paying attention at all… I was pissed off…

Someone only calls me when someones got nothing to do.. or calls me whenever someone needed help on something… I am becoming an option…

An option to be with in times of need… and it makes me sad to think that I am just an option… It may look different from someones point of view.. but I am and I feel… I am an Option…

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How Broken My Heart Is…

Posted in Relationships with tags , on December 8, 2009 by whinley

I cried so hard last night.. For the second time in my life I was given a heartache one could ever imagine.. A feeling of nothingness, and how it made me feel and realize that how vulnerable we humans are.. and how apathetic others are..

Isn’t it in a relationship both of you has to change for the better and not only one?… Wouldn’t it be worth it if you change for the better for your partner and the other vice versa?… Wouldn’t it be worth it to save your relationship and make it last like you’ve always wanted?.. Why would you back out if you were just fed up?.. fed of little things that never mattered to your relationship..

Is it enough to be back together with conditions?… What is much better to hear?.. Were together because we have bargained with our conditions? or simply we just love each other?..How can one be so selfish and unappreciative and still be strong enough to say you are the victim?…

All these questions raveled my head last night..  I felt so alone and the blackness of my room contributed to the gloominess of my face..

I hope you hear me… For others… Try to Hold on.. this world is not going to give you whatever you want… cold love is much colder than snow and winter itself…

For all… I wish you luck to your relationships… I have learned my lesson once again.. And I will never be the same again…

A Letter of Hurtful Words…And How Empty I am….

Posted in Relationships, Uncategorized with tags , , , on December 8, 2009 by whinley

Today I stumbled upon things which I usually get in trouble with.. But this time it got out of hand. And all that is thought of us that is all worth it. It’s gone… A fight… One of the usual things… This time one of us was fed up… All the time I thought I was good enough for someone… I still wasn’t.. I don’t know how to fix things up… I don’t know anymore what is suppose to be done… I think I gave my best shot on this relationship… I was just wasn’t good enough…  Until now I am still hoping to patch things up and unsaid what was said… undo all sorrows…. disregard all unwanted situations… and start love as we call it…all over again…

I wish it was just as easy as giving up… How I wish I can fix it with a glue… How I wish it was just a misunderstanding that later on we would understand or one of us would and go on with our life together…Sometimes one has to make sacrifices…

I want you to know that… How hurtful it was to hear words that we never wanted to say… Unfortunately you were just fed up… and I am sorry… Maybe you just didn’t accepted me as I accepted you… I loved you with all my heart… All of you… your words, your actions, your reminders, your I love you’s.. even your imperfections…

I hope you find great happiness without me, and in whatever you do… I hope you forget me and won’t speak of my name… You know I can’t help but fall in love with you over again… I want you to know you meant the world to me… and when I told you, you were my life.. You are….

I am not angry… I only feel the emptiness which both of us were not longing for… Until here I will carry you with me…

I hope you learned something with me in our life together… Because I did…

But, My life will never be the same without you…

Have A Great Life…

Have A Great Life… . . . . . . . .

How To Loose Your Boyrfirend….

Posted in Relationships, Uncategorized with tags , , on December 2, 2009 by whinley

The title say’s it all… this is for all of you who have an annoying boyfriend and you just can’t loose him with few attempts… Before everything else, make sure you don’t wan’t him in your life, he just annoy’s you, he’s just one of the guys, a past time for you, and there is no emotional attachment from you..

First, stop being cute and sweet… this will only make your bf crazy over you of course…
Next one is, say nothing when your with him, pretend that you’re thinking of something or somebody else…
Next is, when he is about to ask you to dinner or to go out, say you have plans and your kinda busy right now…
Next is, ignore his calls and text messages, or throw out cold messages plain and very simple…this will make him think you’ve lost it to him…
Next!, do not initiate any conversation unless he does, and then answer only his questions and do not comment on other things that he has to say…This will shorten your talk time and leads to you too being bored ends up going home…
Next, try to look more beautiful, but ignore his complements of you being beautiful…
When he looks at you in the eye, look away….Eye contact is a no no…
Next one is, when he wants to check your wallet let him, but before that, remove any pictures or things related to him or what he has given you…
When you’re out to dinner, and you get a smudge on your face and he is about to remove it, quickly remove it yourself… and say I’m Okay…
When you walking beside him don’t rub your shoulder to his, give space between you, this will tell him your going away from him…(we guys aren’t stupid we definitely feel this! hahaha)
When he says goodnight and he loves you, say Okay goodnight….
Next is, Always act as if your busy or at least pretend you are always busy…

The last thing you are about to do is the last thing he never wanted to hear from you… say it straight.. simple, and in person… don’t cry, show no affection or being sorry at all… be flat… well at least tell him what you really think of him and where the relationship would go if you continued with it….

Well if you think about it.. it does makes you a bit guilty deep inside but hey,.. you know he knew it coming… all the first ones you did made him hang on a thread, and the last thing wast just to finalize it and make it seemed like both you just lost it…

Before you do this, make sure you have someone ready to take you and love you like the one you are dumping who is willing to make it work with you and loves you….So that, the one you are dumping won’t have to think again of coming back to you…

People who love each other have an uncanny knack of making each other miserable…

Posted in Relationships, Uncategorized with tags , on December 2, 2009 by whinley

Moshi likes to lick almost anything…He licks my feet when I walk around… he licks my fingers when I carry him…I just don’t know what is with licking that makes him happy…Or is it just he’s way of saying he likes me, well IDK… The problem with moshi is that he’s too friendly… and he’s always happy even though he had no other dog to play with… It just struck me… Why can’t humans be happy by themselves… Seriously I don’t believe in other people who are alone, and say that they are happy…because I’m pretty sure they aren’t… They may say they are happy now but not really… Those were just words of self confidence of being alone… Man cannot live by french bread alone (gave a little flavor to the bread cuz it’s getting old), ha! what a cliche… a cliche that it is somehow, really speaks the truth….

The problem is… when two human beings are together, at the earliest of their stage they seem to like, adore, love(eww) each other more…We tend to see more at the early stage of relationships.. But when you guys get old… and more years you accumulate, more experiences come, more situations passing your way….. heck… your at war… a never ending war… because more means more, more problems…. I’m not saying I’m an expert of what it is about relationships… I’m just trying to dig in more of my past and keep on learning of the experiences I had…

People who love each other have an uncanny knack of making each other miserable… Yup,.. like the statement say… People who are in a relationship make each other miserable… The man learns more about the Woman and vice versa…hence, they both know were the vulnerable parts are of each other… They can ruin each other… with just a few words… Am I right? well if not then ask your partner he/she definitely knows what I’m talkin’ about…if I’m wrong then you shouldn’t worry a bit… well anyway… The men knows how to please the women, women in return knows how the men… and so if you put it in the negative side…men, knows how to hurt women, and so women does to… the question is… why?…

Why would men and women want to hurt each other?… Is it a way of saying I don’t like you anymore or love you anymore?… well, no one can tell until one of you really confesses, so in a relationship… the best thing you can do is…………………………….I haven’t really found or knew the next word to that… cuz I’m still in the process of learning.. but I can say a few things though.. Being honest is one, having trust is one, being faithful is another one, and not being selfish… when you get around all these… you might just have a shot of a long term moderately peaceful relationship..well it is still up to you how you heal each other…

I suggest you lick each other like dogs.. ( hahaha! hey! it’s just a suggestion but it might work) and say what you mean…or mean what you say…